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What do you think these lyrics mean?

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 16:16:59 GMT

"Parting Of The Sensory"

There's no work in walking in to fuel the talk
I would grab my shoes and then away I'd walk
Through all the stubborn beauty I start at the dawn
Until the sun had fully stopped
Never walking away from
Just a way to pull apart
Dehydrate back into minerals
A life long walk to the same exact spot

Carbon's anniversary
The parting of the sensory
Old old mystery
The parting of the sensory

Who the heck made you the boss?
We placed our chips in all the right spots
But still lost
Any craphead who had ever walked
Could take the ship and do a much finer job
This fit like clothes made out of wasps
Aw, screw it I guess I lost

The parting of the sensory
Carbon's anniversary
Just part it again if you please
Carbon's anniversary

Who the heck made you the boss
If you say what to do I know what not to stop
If you were the ship then who would ever get on
The weather changed it for the worse
And came down on us like it had been rehearsed
And like we hope, but change will surely come
And be awful for most but really good for some
I took a trip to the exact same spot
We pulled the trigger, but we forgot to cock
And every single shot

Aw, screw it I guess we lost

Some day you will die and
Somehow something's going to steal your carbon

Some day you will die and
Somehow something's going to steal your carbon

Well some day you will die somehow and
Something's going to steal your carbon

Some day you will die and
Someone's or something's will steal your carbon

Some day something will die and
Somehow you'll figure out how
Often you will die somehow and
Something going to steal your carbon

Well some day you will die somehow and
Something's going to steal your carbon

Monday, May 21, 2007

Mon, 21 May 2007 12:41:47 GMT

*sigh*

If, when I was born, my heart was a straight unbroken line, it would now look like this:

_________ ______ _______ __________

(That means I have a broken heart)

Cheers.

For the few people left on xanga...

Tue, 08 May 2007 14:26:20 GMT

Things are strange. Things completely "changed" about a year ago. Relationships were cut off and new ones were made. I had alot of hurt going on about those changes. I've covered them up. For the past few weeks though, I've been digging them back up. Looking at my former demons, my former loves, just my former life in general.

Feelings never really go away. You can forget about them but the past doesn't truly always stay in the past. I still carry the same emotions for some people who would never expect it. I still carry struggles that people thought were long gone. I still miss people who have left a long time ago. Things never really change. It can feel like it but they don't.

I miss Grace Lutheran and its people. I miss one my long deceased relatives like nothing else. I still have feelings for people I haven't seen in two years. I still have secrets that keep me awake at night. I still am the same person I was then.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 14:12:28 GMT

WOW

xanga....cool.

I've been thinking alot recently on how things can change so drastically in a short period of time. Looking at my life a year ago...yeah, COMPLETELY differant from now. I was a differant person with a differant group of friends with a differant set of beleifs. Things have completely changed. This isn't a bad thing. Both now and then were/are amazing times, just in differant ways. I was so scared that if I let things change they would never be as good as they were. But now that Ive let go and am appreciating the change, things are good. My new group of friends isn't as close as my old one but it will get there. It just takes time. I need to keep telling myself that the journey is more important then the end or the start...Because its the truth.

oh life...

how interesting you are.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 17:05:41 GMT

Whoa. Xanga has just started feeling foreign to me.

I love having my license.

Its so freeing to have alone time in a vehicle.

Quite theraputic really.

I think Id die now without being able to drive.

Tell me you love me <3 <3 <3

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 02:34:25 GMT

I feel really bored lately. Not bored as in nothing to do. Bored in a really bad way. Bored so that all I do is watch crappy old films, play video games, and gorge myself un unhealthy foods. I feel too sorry for myself. Too sorry for the situations Ive put myself into. I could make my situations better but Im realizing that I enjoy them. I love feeling sorry for myself. I love being in pain. Im addicted to needing sympathy. Im addicted to complaining to other people about my problems. And I know that my problems are as small as they could be but that just makes me feel worse for feeling bad in the first place.

Ive done nothing useful since this Febuary.

If I dont get too something soon I will have wasted a whole year of my life. Thats aproximately 1/80 of my life.
I know Ive wasted it but I don't have very much drive to fix it. Why am I addicted to being deppressed and useless?

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 12:57:41 GMT

"Isabelle, Isabelle who's it going to be at your bedside?
Fall asleep to the life you'll live until you die.
Your silence setting down on me is going to kill what's still alive.

It's a long way home. Will it ever feel the same?

To Communicate" - Jonezetta

Oh how I understand what they're saying. Siiiiiiiigh.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 13:20:35 GMT

Girls are so confusing.

If they love you they just cant possibly like you.

And if they like you they cant seem to love you.

Life goes on.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 18:29:38 GMT

Currently Watching:

A few questions:

#1 anybody else happy for friends?

#2 anybody happy for a non-campy Bond film finally?

Monday, November 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 15:47:28 GMT

After much deep thought Ive come to the conclusion that Ive been wasting my life, so Ive decieded a few things:

#1. MUCH less time on the internet.

#2. TV/Movies need to stay at a minimum

#3. Video games need to be mostly used for social events.

#4. I need to be spending more time pursuing achademic (sp?) knowledge

#5. I need to spend more time pursuing spiritual knowledge

#6. I need to spend the time I would normally be using on entertainment to develope my skills (mainly musical).

#7. I need to start discipling my body by gradually starting to eat healthier, lift weights, and just excersize in general.